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Abstract

This thesis is a record of facing my inner fear. As someone who has been scared of making achievements in the art business but still wants to challenge it at the same time. The project was designed to give me a better understanding of my fears about the art world by forcing myself to meet with famous artists under the circumstances of art exhibitions, seminars, and workshops in order to learn from their experiences. Then, I took pictures of that situation to reflect on my fear by painting over the picture. This process is like meditation in that it considers the fear that arises within the mind. I chose the painting techniques because my expertise gives me a sense of security enough to face my fears. I also painted a series of my own portraits as an exploration of my inner feelings. Also, use painting to study the masterpiece artworks that have inspired me to be fascinated with the art world in the past. Therefore, this thesis does not act as a therapeutic tool created by any psychologists or psychiatrists. It is more like the evidence of my struggle to survive from the point where I was trapped. However, several psychological studies have been adapted to be a creation tool for realistic mixed with surrealistic paintings. By creating realistic images in my safe zone, my identity is brought forward and presented in an honorable way. As a result, a deep peace appears in the mind while I am painting and concentrating on paying meticulous attention to the details. Visual reality will merge with surreal fantasies when I reencounter the art world at that moment. All the paintings will be installed specifically inside the tunnel of Wat Umong. This enormous spiritual place is going to fill my empty heart, which has some pieces missing from the journey that my life has been through.